mental blocks and physical responses

ok, so the countdown has begun... i sit for the audit section of the cpa exam in exactly 6 days. now, according to the study plan that i had in my head, i'm actually right where i'm supposed to be...and up until monday morning, i thought that all was well and beautiful in my world.

then i woke up...

today is wednesday, and for the last 2 days, my stomach has acted like there is a nuclear war inside. on top of that, i just can't seem to get enough rest (this coming from someone who typically gets 5 hours of sleep). today for lunch, i studied for 30 minutes, and then i literally put my head on my desk and went to sleep for 15 minutes. i have NEVER done that before...

before the thought even comes up...HELL.NO. i'm not pregnant. unless i am a direct descendant of the virgin mary, it's not even possible.

anywho, in speaking to my best friend last night, her first words were, 'ok girl, i've known you since we were 12...and you SOUND stressed.' that shocked me...but it was the first time that i stopped denying MYSELF and embraced the fact that perhaps i AM just a bit intimidated by the importance of this exam. and so... last evening, when i got in the house, i text messaged him and asked him to pray for me. he immediately replied in the affirmative, and i couldn't help but smile.

*tangent* when you have folks in your life...pause, rewind... when you have a male in your life that has a personal relationship with God and you can ask and be assured that he will pray for you, the blessing in that is astounding...and in these situations, i always thank God for bringing him in my life - whether we're meant to be friends, or more... he's special to me, and he's been a blessing to my life. (yes, that's a whole 'nother blog to be discussed later)

*back to the regularly scheduled program* and so, i had to get in my prayer closet and ask God to remove whatever doubts, fears, stress, etc. that i had in my spirit. i can NOT continue to be sick like this everyday and perform well at work or on this exam... and i'm believing God for His healing... because... well, i have NO choice. i know He can, so He will...

new to this...

always thought about having my own personal blog... seems like nothing more than a cyber-diary. i'm not sure if the world could actually handle reading my thoughts, but... we're going to see. Good stuff coming soon...